I'm Going To Be a Dad

This is an interesting time in the pregnancy spectrum. I believe this would be different for everyone, I entered this phase about 2 weeks after I found out. I remember going to work and just feeling like I was in a different dimension. My mind was everywhere and nowhere at the same time. After work I sat in my truck and really didn't know what I was going through at the moment. All I could think about is how could I provide for another person. Another mouth to feed, more clothes to buy, how will I afford it's college (at this point it is an it because up until a month ago we didn't know the gender). Multiply these thoughts by 50 and that is similar to what I was going through. It is important to note that this is too early to bring these thoughts up to your mommy to be. This is because all it brings about is fear, uncertainty, and doubt that you are wanting to go through with it. I am not going to get into the argument against/for abortion because this is not a blog about that. My views are my views alone. Your mommy to be wants to know that if she is willing to do this, that her man will be leading the way. Another month or so down the road would be more appropriate for bringing these feelings forward. At this time they will be more organized, the "heat of the moment" will have worn off and you will better understand your own feelings. After sitting in my truck collecting my thoughts I drove to the Babies R' Us and walked in. I didn't plan on buying anything frankly becuase I don't know anything about babies. I don't know what they eat, how they sleep, what they like or even what they do. I have no prior experience in this field. You could say I was totally lost. I really just walked around. Reading signs, looking at prices, looking at diapers, and about fell over when I saw how much those darn things cost. This has been the biggest hurdle for me to get over. The cost. But once you get over it your life is instantly better. It is good practice to check prices, and to cut corners in certain areas but when it boils down to it, you will never be financially stable enough to afford a baby. Let me put that in lamence terms. You Will Never Feel Financially Ready To Have A Baby.

After I left the store I felt at piece with the idea, and even fairly excited for the future. It was definantly a good moment for me. I got some time to get myself collected, and ready for everything mother nature would throw my way.

Next up: Telling the famly.